“I haven’t been climbing as much as I should…”
According to whom?
Where is the should coming from?
Those of us who want to climb all the time find a way to do that. Those who prefer to spend time on the trails, or making art: they do that instead.
These things exist on a spectrum and there is no wrong answer.
So why the guilt? Why this, should?
We all tell ourselves a story about what we want, but it’s not always true. And we create an inordinate amount of suffering for ourselves when we confuse what we want with what we think we want.
First, listen to the story you are telling yourself about what you want.
If it is true, quite apologising for doing it.
If it isn’t true, it’s time to tell yourself a different story.